How Badly Do Ya Want It?

So it was my lunch hour, and I was walking to a picnic hosted just a block away by the managers/owners of the building I work in and the neighboring buildings. It's a picnic they host every year and during the event they draw business cards to give away prizes. One of the prizes is always a wide screen flat panel TV.
I always wanted one of those TVs and the main reason is that I know my video games would look oh so great on it. Each year I go to this picnic, hoping to win the big one. And each year the TV is won by someone who doesn't seem to have to even worry about money.
So, this year, I gave my business card for the drawing, got my food, and walked back to the office with food and drink in hand(s). On the way back, I prayed to God that he'd allow me to win that TV. The more I thought about it, the more I prayed until I got to the point where I was rationalizing with God on why I should win. I was telling him things like "there's no reason why I shouldn't win." Sometime, during all that foolish praying, the thought occurred to me. Why does it seem like I only pray fervently about obtaining material possessions?
Well, that got my attention. It could very well have been God putting that in my mind. The more I though about it the more ashamed I became. I even started laughing at the sheer selfishness of my prayer. If anyone saw me laughing to myself, I'm sure they may have thought me to be a bit touched in the head.
I thought of my prayer the night before and compared the "hope meter" readings and found that I had more hope that God would allow me to win the TV than to help me do things differently so that things in my life would be different.
I concluded that I wanted material gain more than I wanted spiritual blessings, and the realism of how foolish that really was made me laugh more. How absurd of me!
I am trying to make plans to marry a woman who has shown me beyond a shadow of a doubt that she is the love of my life. A life time with a loving, kind, and quite honestly, a hot piece of work who has no problems with me putting God before her - realizing that it's what's necessary to be the husband she deserves - is far more important than some stupid TV. Whether you are a God fearing man, an atheist, or one who simply acknowledges the existence of God, I'm sure you'd agree that spiritual blessings and intercessory prayer should be at the forefront of a professed Christian's prayer.
Though, I was quite sincere in my prayer last night. Perhaps God answered my prayer and brought that to my attention, giving me the information -if you will - and leaving me with the responsibility to act on it.
"Do you really want to do things differently? Well then here. This is one area where you can do things differently. You didn't realize it before, so I'm here to help you see it for what it really is. You already know what to do. Will you do it?"
That's what it all boils down to, right? Personal action. The proof is in the pudding. Do I want it bad enough to put as much effort in prayer as I did for the TV if not more? BabyGirl, I'm praying real hard for us to get married ASAP. I'll start doing that in all aspects of life as well. Both individually and together. I love you.

P.S.: I'm getting ready. I'm even watching this awesome instructional video that I think will really pay off.


I had no idea Plankton is so well-versed in such arts. Just when you think you know somebody.