I sorrwy.

It's been quite some time since I last posted. Since then I've faced some pretty hefty challanges in my life. Much of which - I'm ashamed to say - really killed me spiritually. I was just going through the motions, going to church, reading my bible, being a part of the services of God. Hypocracy at it's finest, I know. But I feel deathly afraid of just walking away al together. Like I'll NEVER find my way back.
No, I didn't loose faith, nor did God forsake me. It was just easier to surender to the pressures of the world than to keep my trust in God. But that decision had negative and lasting effects. Just today I thought of how stupid I was to look for consulation in the things the world had to offer when they were nothing more than temporary distractions. (No I didn't go pickin' up women if that's what you're thinking. Though the thought was enterteined many times.)
Once again, I'm trying to get back on track. I will try to keep this post updated. Not that anyone's really reading it anyway. But one day someone who really needs encouragement and needs to read a mutual confession may come accross this blog be encouraged by what's posted. If that happens, it will all be worth it.

(You may come accross things I've uploaded to various websites that a Christian ought not to upload. All I can say is I'm ashamed for doing it. To be honest, I haven't claimed to be Christian for a few months now. Currently, I'm trying to rectify that. God is a much better ally.)